Diary of Ellen's Life.

Hey everyone! I've disappeared for some time right....? Hahaha, I'm not busy actually, but I just don't really have idea on what I should blog about. Many things happened as usual, but I don't really want to go into detail for some things.  It's like shooting with broken arrows, no matter how much I aim, it still wouldn't get shot. When you fall apart, am I the reason for your endless sorrow? There's so much to be said. Poly life has been tiring, with me still juggling with work I guess. I'm so tired of life sometimes, like really tired of everything physically & mentally. Well, I never saw it coming. I still think of you sometimes. But I always remind myself what had past is history. If you had wanted to stay in my life, you would make an effort to.  But anyways, I've a friend whom I want to feature today, her name's Felicia Ton g. Well, we met at the funniest circumstances and it's hilarious how small the world is. We met through SBA, b...

 "You finally thought it through." Where do i start? I dont know. Do i really dont know or maybe I do but I just dont want to talk about it? No idea too.  The feeling of being hurt, the anger, the guilt are all easily brought back. "It's simple actually, if people could walk away so easily,  you probably don't mean anything to them from the start." omo this hurt so much when i read it. I've to admit that within the last few years, last few months, last few days, I've had many people walking away from me, yet not once do i feel that i'm getting used to it. I hate myself for caring too much, I hate myself for not being able to get over with any single shit even after such a long time. Even after such a long time, I'm still back to square one. Even after telling myself countless times its not worth it. Even though i know those people who walked away will never come back, i'm still stupidly waiting for them to be...

Hello earthlings, yeap. Like what the title says, I'm back. :) It came as a shock to me when i decided to not blog for a few months and just lock my blog, and many people actually came forward to ask me why. Hmmm, I guess i felt really exhausted due to some things and decided to go away for awhile, but i'm back! :) How many months has it been? I think I've also not updated about my life and all. But i'm currently pursing a diploma in Business Administration in Singapore Polytechnic. As much as i regret not getting into JC, but all in all. The journey till now has been quite fruitful. As time passes, many things changes that i dont even realise it myself. There were many shitty things that happened in between that i will not like to go into detail. But after going through so many things, i found myself becoming much more matured. I would tend to compare myself now to the past me. It is a good thing i would say. :) However, the major thing that really struck me really h...

This post was requested. But i'm feeling so drained out becos i just had a camp and my phone recently died on me. So my data was all lost and i spent like my whole day at the service centre to just get a new phone. :(  But i swear this post of mine will make a lot of people cringe. Legit so disclaimer to those who's not interested. People who knows me should know the exact reason why i cherish friendships so much. Becos the only thing i was afraid is falling into deep ai with someone, then become strangers and so on... But you can never control your feelings, that i have to admit. You never can stop your feelings, asking yourself not to fall. Even knowing that nobody will be there to catch you when you fall. You will still fall. So i did i guess. So this one day, i saw myself smiling from ear to ear from a text message. I saw myself replying to every single message of this someone. | thats already very weird of me okay becos i never does reply to every single message of my...

Time is passing swiftly in a blink of an eye. 1 month before school starts. (i keep repeating how fast time is passing by, but yes it is passing by so quickly) Firstly, my prayers were answered. I actually had lost all hope to getting to the course that i want. If you know me well enough or reads my previous posts, you would know that my first choice during the JAE was actually Business Administration in SP. But due to some JPSAE interview, i was shortlisted to go for Business Studies in NP which was my second choice. I was actually fine with both. But becos my application was unsuccessful, i couldnt get into BS in NP. I was more upset with the fact that becos of that, BA in SP didnt consider me. BUT, a miracle happened when something inside of me told me not to give up appealing. So i gave it a try, & woop; I GOT IN. ;))))))) MY FIRST CHOICE, DBA in SP. HEHEHEHEHEHE. You have no idea how happy i was when my mummy threw the enrolment package to me in my room after she went down...

No idea why i feel like blogging. Many things have happened within just a few days. It's really amazing how fast time is flying. I think when my school opens in april. I wouldn't have time for blogging anymore but of course i will still try my best! ;) I've been occupied with work, drama and letsgetrich that i no longer think of stupid things. HAHAHAHA. <5 my low iq woman. <5 Oh yes, I've been considering whether to keep my blog private from now on, becos its kind of really annoying to receive questions on ask.fm/ or whatever social media about my blog. If i didnt name the person on my blog, it's obviously becos i dont want people to know who it is. Dont bother asking me. I wont tell you nevertheless. Its's kind of getting really annoying. Really. Many many hilarious things & weird things happened last few days. Complicated feelings. Secondly, There was also this another friend, whom i actually teared after talking it out. He's a ...

I know many people had been asking me to update on a few of my more significant events such as the Taeyang Concert, Valentines and My CNY trip to Genting. But i think i will update just a few for those. I would like to answer some questions that's often asked to me in ask.fm and other social media. Firstly i would like to apologise as I've just been really busy with work and some other things like watching drama.   KEKEKEKE. I promise i will update more often. JK, i will try my best. but here's a selfie of me & bestiefl with makeup on. HEH Taeyang Concert So if you're following my instagram and twitter, you would know that i went for the Taeyang RISE live concert on the 8th of February 2015. 7 years being his die-hard fan, Surprising isnt it that i get to see him only now? HAH. I've got to thank my bae and denny for the ticket! It was a VVIP ticket mind you, they paid like $300+ in total. I remember I had to tutor someone in the morning, we were nea...

There was this suggestion made in my ask.fm. Asking me to update my blog on my Os journey  I thought it was a pretty interesting topic that I would look forward to reading it again when I grow old. So here it goes. O's Journey Hmm how would I start it, I am a procrastinator. Like no joke, I think i am one of the best procrastinator in my batch. Nobody would even know. I didn't like studying. I mean ok i know, who likes it right? Whats worse? Knowing that the my weakest subject was the most important subject. Before in the past, I always didn't think of much importance on Math. I thought it was like just another subject. But only till Sec4 then i realise how important Math was. But still I didnt want to buck up at the first semester of the school. Moreover, I was too active into my council and dance cos' yes i love them both. So whats the best tip that i can give to those who's taking O's this year? START NOW. no joke. First semester, I still rememb...

Hihi. I'm currently waiting for my JAE/JPSAE results to be out this thurs/fri. Really am hoping that i will get into the course that i really want now. Ok. So this is how my mind goes. At first, i was just focused on just going into the Early Childhood course in NP? But then due to my fickle mind, I changed my mind to go for business. Crazy isnt it? Like the worst subject that i scored for was POA and I'm actually going to go for Business. I know right. Idek, I just had this strong feeling over me to choose business while i was choosing the course. Luckily, My senior Germaine was there for me to guide me along. Thank god for her. My sister was unable to help due to her busy schedule. :( (or just talking to her boyfie who's in NS now) hmmmmm. #Boyfriendproblems. Who needs a boyfriend when i have him. :') 15th January 2015  I went back to school to get back results. As you know, i didn't go back on the actual results day as i was overseas. Really was luck...