I'm back!

Hello earthlings, yeap. Like what the title says, I'm back. :) It came as a shock to me when i decided to not blog for a few months and just lock my blog, and many people actually came forward to ask me why. Hmmm, I guess i felt really exhausted due to some things and decided to go away for awhile, but i'm back! :) How many months has it been? I think I've also not updated about my life and all. But i'm currently pursing a diploma in Business Administration in Singapore Polytechnic. As much as i regret not getting into JC, but all in all. The journey till now has been quite fruitful. As time passes, many things changes that i dont even realise it myself. There were many shitty things that happened in between that i will not like to go into detail. But after going through so many things, i found myself becoming much more matured. I would tend to compare myself now to the past me. It is a good thing i would say. :)

However, the major thing that really struck me really hard was the passing of my great-grandmum. She was 94 years old, and when i found out a few days before her passing that she was in the ICU, i had the instinct that she would not survive this ordeal, but me being me told myself she would. In the end, because of that we missed seeing her for the last time. Its true when they say you only start to cherish someone only after they're gone. After she left on that day, it was truly a day that i didnt want to remember. That morning especially, i cried all the way to school. In school, crying again, stopped crying, started crying again after awhile. Memories of her just keep coming in, she loved me and my siblings more than others. But all we did was to just leave her in Myanmar and decide to come to Singapore. I really just regretted coming to Singapore, but actually till now; i do regret coming to Singapore. HA. I'm going to miss you very much, more than you can ever imagine.

the last ever picture taken with you.

i miss you.

On a side note, I was really grateful that day to my bestiefl. She rushed down to SP on that day despite me ending late. She knew i wasn't myself. She texted me in class and even almost teared when she saw my face. My face was terrible i swear hahahaha. But she rushed down to cheer me up, to get ice-cream becos she could feel the sadness i was feeling i guess. Yanjie and Marcus came along to, and they called that day "Zune's Day" and did everything to just make me happy. I admit it was a big blow to me becos it was the first ever time i lost someone i love. It was the first ever time i experienced the passing of a loved one. I didnt know it hurts that much. In school too, I'm really grateful to a few of my classmates, JingAn, Kaijie, Kailing and most importantly, Pearlyn. She was just there while i cried so loud. Kaijie went over to tell me how he lost his uncle suddenly too to make me feel better. JingAn & Kailing too and my niggas.

Thank you, you 3. :')

Means so much.

Kudos, PearlynKoh.

You deserve to get featured,

dont get too thickskinned tho.

Heng Jing An, You too.
Thanks for still being you. :)

stop growing tho.

Oh yes! I still haven't thank my two zhabors and a xueting. Angng HuiShan and ChanHuiEn, Idk but i've grown really close and clingy to them in a sense. Maybe because i really just want to cling onto our friendship as much as i can. :) I cant afford to lose so many people from my life. Thank you for even just staying. 

This two need to return back to my side soon too. :/) 

I might not be that active on my blog since my exams are till 2nd of Sept. *CRIES* but just an update & guise, please go watch, Murphy Law of Love. because that drama is hands down the best drama i've watched. Many of the love dramas are always unrealistic but that drama would not disappoint you. I promise. especially since the main actor, Danson is my boyfie hehhehe. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA.

"Relationships breaks up Friendship." - PearlynKoh said it today.

FAVOURITE FAVOURITE.

Till next time,
Lights out ellen! :)