All day, I hold onto you.

I know many people had been asking me to update on a few of my more significant events such as the Taeyang Concert, Valentines and My CNY trip to Genting. But i think i will update just a few for those. I would like to answer some questions that's often asked to me in ask.fm and other social media. Firstly i would like to apologise as I've just been really busy with work and some other things like watching drama.

  KEKEKEKE. I promise i will update more often.
JK, i will try my best.
but here's a selfie of me & bestiefl with makeup on. HEH

Taeyang Concert

So if you're following my instagram and twitter, you would know that i went for the Taeyang RISE live concert on the 8th of February 2015. 7 years being his die-hard fan, Surprising isnt it that i get to see him only now? HAH. I've got to thank my bae and denny for the ticket! It was a VVIP ticket mind you, they paid like $300+ in total. I remember I had to tutor someone in the morning, we were nearly late going to expo for the sound check party. HAH, We got to see youngbae without his make up and with his moustache still on. He was so adorbs, Enough said. We also met a really friendly hip aunty who rushed down after her work. I swear she's like one of the most hippest? auntie you can ever find. She would dance along to his songs and all. We also met other fans like XiaoYee, Yixun and Gawin who came to SG from JB just for his concert, hahaha. Overall it was fun and it wasn't as awkward as i thought it would be with Denny. He also sang along to some songs and all in all, we haddddd funn! We had supper & then headed home. OH YES, Youngbae threw his (scarf?) into me and denny's direction, and he caught it but the other fans were super crazy about it so he let it go HAHAH. I'll just let the pictures do the workk for others!

look at the shiny shiny *.*

Me, XiaoYee, Gawin, Yixun

Lillian, Denny.

Really was glad to meet the other YB fans.

Never ever will i be able to forget Feb8th2015.

The day i saw DongYoungBae LIVE.

Valentines Day

Valentines Day was a really normal saturday for me. Nobody was my valentine, but i remember that day i figured something out in my life. I would say its a blessing in disguise? But am glad that i received a teddy bear and flowers from my workmates. I was working at clementi that day and i swear the people at my workplace at clementi are the best people i've ever met in my life. They were the sweetest people that i can ever find. It wasn't becos i was young and all, the managers there were so young and so helpful like omg? They gave me advices on poly and what will happen in poly and stuff. Its such a blessing that Valentines was occupied by work and i didnt think anything stupid. HAHAH But i remember, Yanjie came over at night to pass me a letter and a bookmark which meant really smth to me especially that day was a really long day and something really stupid happened that night. I felt really depressed and even tried to stupidly hurt myself. GOSH, i cant believe that i will even do that. HA. But before that incident, I received a text immediately after work, I literally cried hahaha, becos i was super touched and happy by that one simple reply. I totally stared at that text and teared. I wouldn't say into much detail here. But that text and that simple reply was all i needed for Valentines. 

Was totally hesistant becos i thought i wouldnt get a reply

But the reply was all that i need after a long day.

  

Some gifts that i received! The tokyo banana was a surprise from Denny

on the 15th HAHA so it wasnt valentines. HEH.

Thank youuuuuuu everyone. <55

CNY Genting Family Trip

Hehe this was one of the best trips ever. Maybe becos it was just with familia. So dad received a letter saying that its his birthday month and as he is a member at the Resorts world both in sg & at genting, He could get a complimentary suite room. Heheh so then he decided to take us the whole family to Genting to enjoy. I had been to Genting when i was very young so i couldn't remember much. Only this time then that made me love Genting so much. The weather there is just daebakkkkk. I even touched and caught some clouds hehehehe. The hotel we stayed in was Genting Grand and we stayed in the Royal Suite? I think... It was so hugeeeee. Like even bigger and better than my house. HAHAAAA, There was 2 bathrooms with a bathtub with TV, 2 bedrooms, 1 living room, 1 dressing room. I totally felt like a princess. I love staying in suite. Dont judge. Then my dad and my mum went into the casino? They won back some amount of money so dad brought us shopping HAHAH, I shopped like crazy at there becos shopping is all you can do at there. Even a person who hates shopping like me could get like 10/11 outfits. AND I FINALLY GOT MY NEW BALANCE SHOEEEEEE. We also ate just literally good food? Sharkfin/ Birdnest etc you name it, we can eat it HAHAHAHA.   Thank you dadsie and momsie for this awesome trip. We came back in a coach limousine? Which is like just nice for a family of 5 and a driver. On the road we bought some sweet potatos/durians hehehe. All in all, I loved everything in Genting.

This was my snapchat!

FIRST DAY, & i fell terribly sick. :(

2nd day, I CAUGHT CLOUDS. HEHEEHEHE.

& this day i remember my mum made me wear the dress that was so short

that i had to keep pulling it down. JUST BECOS IT WAS 初一

& i had to wear smth reddd :(

THIRD DAY, HEHEHEHEHEH

The car behindd, the driver told us it has only been 4 days

the car was like delivered. SO WE WERE LUCKY HEHE.

The dress was super short i swear but i didnt bring safety shorts & all..

But this picture turned out so well HAHA, I look natural with the goodie background behind.

HEHEHEHEHE.

Under will be come questions that received in Ask.fm that

i think i have to clear about.

Are you and Sai together?

The answer is no. In the future? Also no. Becos why? He's my bestfriend. I know many people say that a guy and a girl can never be just best friends. But frankly, he and me are just really best friends. Nobody would really understand our relationship actually. Even if i have a boyfriend i think the bond with my boyfriend would never be able to compare up to my bond with Sai. He and me really just does share this bond that nobody ever knows. It's getting really annoying that i've been receiving questions about him and me. Yes, he gave me a ring necklace for my birthday present. MIND YOU, for the last 4 years, yes he did give me presents and gifts but this year's was the best okay HAHA. Becos it was customised and it made me feel he made it just for us. :) But to whoever is crushing on him, He and me are not together. We are good workmates, good partners and bestfriends. We have a relationship that's even closer than lovers, but we're not lovers or anything. He's just someone i really treasure a lot? I cant imagine losing him away from my life. He's leaving SG soon i believe? I was so depressed when he broke the news to me that i cried to my pillow for the whole freaking day. He have no idea about it but yeah, i told myself i HAVE to wait till he climb to the top and hear his song for me being played on the radio in the future hehe. It's sad knowing he's leaving me but i'm sure we will never lost contact no matter what? I will always wear the necklace with the ring that he gave me. I will never ever take it down from my neck. Its a promise. A platonic friendship hahaha.

Why do you look like you have no problems/ no family problems/ no financial problems?

Honestly, everyone has their own problems that doesnt say it out on social media. Many people might see me as someone very carefree with no family/financial problems to worry about. But really i do. Haha, Its just i dont really like to talk about it on social media that much. My family does argue and all, & when my parents argue its like end of the world you have totally no idea. Financial problems? Is there any business that ensure that there will be no failures? There isnt. Even thomas edison has to try like what? 99,00 times before the light bulb could light up? is it? Haha, but i'm trying to say here is that sometimes its all about the perspective and your opinion on the situation. For example, if you see a cup with water thats half filled, would you see it as half empty or half filled with water? Yeap, sometimes the perspective is all that matters. I do argue with my parents/siblings and i get really affected by those too. But i'd rather keep it to myself than tell someone whom i does not trust/ make them upset by letting them know they cant do anything to help me? I'd rather not. I'd rather act everything's fine, everything's ok. Becos i always believe if its not okay, its not the end. There is always a will. I always pray whenever something really big crop up in my life that i feel that i can never overcome it. In the end it will always turn out fine. Sometimes i couldnt take it either, i get emotional and think of stupid stuffs. BUT, if you feel like crying just cry it out loud.

Becos, for me. I always feel better after a good cry. :)

What a long post,

but i guess thats all for today! :)

Lights out ellen.

What a productive day hehehe.

Again, apologies for taking so much time to update my blog! :)