Diary of Ellen's Life.

Its the first day of 2020. Thought I should do this tag since the last was in 2016! 1:   Let’s  start  with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?  Confused with what I will achieve in the future and whether I will be happy with what I will achieve  2:   Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?    Yes, I still do and I am really thankful for it.  3:  I f your significant other smoked pot, would you care?     Yes I would. Smoking is a real turn-off for me.  4:  Do you find it easy to trust others?     Yes I do, human nature is kind.  5:   What were you doing at 11PM last night? I was with Sheryl Loh downstairs, having H2H and reflections of the year.  6:   You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?    Sheryl Loh & Hanny 7:   What would you do if you found out you had been lied to?    I ...

Wow. It's almost a year that I stopped blogging. Its already November 2018. What happened? World Cup already ended too. I also graduated from Singapore Polytechnic. What else happened.... Oh, I entered adulthood officially. I started to work in OCBC as soon as I graduated in April.... till last month, October when my contract ended. Anyway, I don't know why I started to re-read my blog and had the feels to blog. Probably because of the text I received from someone and also I talked to Sai after so long as we were both busy. I learned so much within this year and changed so much too. Even looking a glimpse at the people that I currently talk to and am close to... it drastically changed. So yesterday I received a text from a dear friend that stopped talking a few years back, he was probably drunk thats why he asked such a question. But it got me thinking, so he confessed to me years ago. But we didnt work out, and he texted me saying that he want to know if he stands a chance n...

As I am writing this, It is already the 31st of December 2017. The last day of 2017. How do I start writing this? A memory lane of 2017, but I would say 2017 was one of the most mundane year of my life. This was the year which I was filled up with work, projects and also what I would want to do in the future. This year also made me grew so much, made me cherish life and the people around me so much more.  So what happened this year you might ask? Nothing really interesting happened but I think the little me really grew a lot within this year through the experiences, the hurt and the pains. I vividly remember kick-starting 2017 with so much of hope and love. I hoped that whoever remained in my life in 2016 would do the same in 2017. Unfortunately, not all stayed. Some left and I would be lying if I said it does not bother me. So a few days ago, I received this book that I purchased online written by a really beautiful lady, Miss Lindy Tsang also known as bubzbeauty on youtube. ...

I guessed as much. So here it is! I realised I've never written a dedication blog post to you even though we've been best friends since like forever. Even though I know I've expressed my gratitude to you countless times on this blog of mine that nobody reads. But anyways, thats not the main thing.  The main thing is, Happiest 20th Birthday, Peabrain! Here it goes, this post is going to be filled with thank you(s) and filled with so many of our memories that maybe only we would know. I think that the best part about this (our) friendship is that we learn so much from each other. Whether it be movie recommendations, friendship; relationship; fashion advice, life decisions, adventures -- we have relied on each other to keep each other going. Each time I feel like or broke down and called/messaged/ring you randomly, you would realise that something is wrong and pry it out of me until you could make me better with your corny jokes. You never fail to me there for me. ...

Helluuuu SuHtar and others who is gonna read this. This post is dedicated to my longest best friend, SuHtar Myint Myat (Cindy Li)!! Happiest 19th Birthday my dearest girl. I'm terribly sorry, this year again, we're not together. To be honest, we lost contact ever since you changed school and I moved to Singapore. Even though we were young, we knew we were each other's soulmates. That friendship of ours didn't go away even though we lost contact for so many years. Thank you for not forgetting me and thank you also for finding me first through Facebook in 2012. I'm more than grateful looking back. How lucky am i to still have you in my life.  The first time we went out together was to the Sea Aquarium in 2013. We even got like matching crop tops remember!!!! Hahaha, this was our last picture or was it the first? We cabbed to the place i remember HAHAHA. Looking back we were only 15 years old?? HAHAHAHAHA ok we look like shiet. HAHAA our first matching ...

Its so suffocating, knowing its been so long, knowing its time to let go yet a part of me still couldn't. "刪掉你手機的訊息 清空你專屬的抽屜 如果可以的話 多想 從來沒認識過你" I don't even know why i still could feel this way. I don't even know why is it that when it comes to you, i wish that I've never met you. I always thought we would be a circle, ended up we became parallel lines, or even perpendicular lines. We met once, and proved to each other that we were not meant to be. At first, we eagerly moved towards each other like the attraction of the opposites of a magnet. It started off simple, nothing special, nothing worth storytelling but it will always be my favourite. No matter how crappy or bad it seems, i looked forward to something - you making me smile. Then all of a sudden, we gave up on what we promised each other at the start.  I always thought its becos of you that i've started to close off to every possible other. But in the end, i found out its becos o...