First post of 2018

Wow.
It's almost a year that I stopped blogging. Its already November 2018. What happened? World Cup already ended too. I also graduated from Singapore Polytechnic. What else happened....
Oh, I entered adulthood officially. I started to work in OCBC as soon as I graduated in April.... till last month, October when my contract ended.

Anyway, I don't know why I started to re-read my blog and had the feels to blog. Probably because of the text I received from someone and also I talked to Sai after so long as we were both busy. I learned so much within this year and changed so much too. Even looking a glimpse at the people that I currently talk to and am close to... it drastically changed. So yesterday I received a text from a dear friend that stopped talking a few years back, he was probably drunk thats why he asked such a question. But it got me thinking, so he confessed to me years ago. But we didnt work out, and he texted me saying that he want to know if he stands a chance now. What shocked me was both his action but I have to give it to him that I was touched by his persistance.

He was someone that had feelings for me the longest time and also someone who chased me with sincerity but I guess I wasn't ready. His sudden text yesterday night made me felt so apologetic becos I had no idea I caused him that much of hurt for like the past few years. But I knew the answer immediately to his question and I know he knows the answer to that question himself too but he just wanted me to answer. The first group of friends I turned to for help that was STILL ACTIVE at 1am was my OStay.


OStay is my final year project group name. We can say that we were strangers before we started on the project. But we clicked off so well that I have never had a clique that I feel so much myself, so comfortable to be with. Each of us were just so selfless towards each other, I remember each and everyone of us made it a point to buy the whole group's breakfast on every of our project day. We made sure to have breakfast together. I really love all of us being together, till today. Besides Sai, besides Su Htar, they are the first people that I think about. There were arguments and drama between us but we made sure to talk it out and settle it. Of course also to put it all behind us, the chemistry was just different with all the 5 of us. Many told us that all 5 of us are so different, we are so dynamic yet we fit into a whole puzzle so easily. They're probably the people that I rely so much on now since both of my best friends are physically away from me. They are the ones I now know I can't live without. But thank you for staying by, thank you for always cleaning up my ass, thank you for being able to tolerate my emotional ass. 


Till next time, as I have work. But I will probably blog the last post for 2018 before it ends.
Lights out ellen! :)

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