It's 2016. :)

Heyheyhey, well when I'm writing this. it's 2:00am of 7th Jan? Hahaha it's a Thursday & I have a 8am class tomorrow but I guess I just wanted to write a post. Happy New Year everyone, it's 2016! I had many resolutions in 2015, but doubt I did even achieve everything hahaha. A year flew by so quickly. Thank you Facebook for reminding me what happened years ago of this day. So 29th Decemeber 2014, I think? I was tagged in this video. So a year later, Facebook reminded me & it seemed like just a day ago. Many things changed in 2015, many people left in 2015, many experiences I went through & many new people I met. I'm thankful for everything that happened, & am grateful that from everything. I learned something. I grew up basically speaking. I have a few people who still stood by me, ever since 2015, no doubt. Joey, Sai, Yanjie, Huishan, HuiEn, Sendjaja, WeiHeng, Marcus who else? many more. But there were also a few whom was dear to my heart who left, no doubt. Maybe I didn't treat them good enough, maybe I wasn't good enough for them, maybe we were just too different. I told myself. But I learned how to put all these behind me, I learned how to let go of things that didn't belong to me. I learned how to forgive & forget. I learned that holding on too tight on some things would make them walk away from me. I learned that the real reason why I was afraid when they was around was becos they would give up on me & walk away from me. Some proved me right, but some stayed & proved me wrong. :") Many many things happened in 2015, some made my heart ache, some made my heart smile. But I decided to keep all these memories deep down at the smallest corner of my heart. I guess everytime I look back into 2015, I would tear yet tell myself, it was a year where I grew so much, be it in love, be it in friendship or be it in family. A year, where I had to force myself to be a grown up. Maybe I'm someone who cherishes our friendship more than you do, maybe I'm someone who cherishes our relationship more than you do, that's why I'm the only one left. But again, maybe I'm not worth enough for you to be able to give up on me so easily. It's 2016, I don't really want anything to happen maybe becos I'm afraid of the future, of my future of what it awaits me. But I promise, I'll grab hold tightly of some people in 2016, to make sure they would still exist in my future.
 I hope to end this post with my resolution for 2016.  "For everyone who I love, & for everyone who love me to stay safe, healthy, happy, & wealthy." 

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