Diary of Ellen's Life.

 "You finally thought it through." Where do i start? I dont know. Do i really dont know or maybe I do but I just dont want to talk about it? No idea too.  The feeling of being hurt, the anger, the guilt are all easily brought back. "It's simple actually, if people could walk away so easily,  you probably don't mean anything to them from the start." omo this hurt so much when i read it. I've to admit that within the last few years, last few months, last few days, I've had many people walking away from me, yet not once do i feel that i'm getting used to it. I hate myself for caring too much, I hate myself for not being able to get over with any single shit even after such a long time. Even after such a long time, I'm still back to square one. Even after telling myself countless times its not worth it. Even though i know those people who walked away will never come back, i'm still stupidly waiting for them to be...

Hello earthlings, yeap. Like what the title says, I'm back. :) It came as a shock to me when i decided to not blog for a few months and just lock my blog, and many people actually came forward to ask me why. Hmmm, I guess i felt really exhausted due to some things and decided to go away for awhile, but i'm back! :) How many months has it been? I think I've also not updated about my life and all. But i'm currently pursing a diploma in Business Administration in Singapore Polytechnic. As much as i regret not getting into JC, but all in all. The journey till now has been quite fruitful. As time passes, many things changes that i dont even realise it myself. There were many shitty things that happened in between that i will not like to go into detail. But after going through so many things, i found myself becoming much more matured. I would tend to compare myself now to the past me. It is a good thing i would say. :) However, the major thing that really struck me really h...