People come, People go.
It's 2:27am in the morning.. & I have no idea why do I feel like blogging right now. I'm done with my Science Practical, Math Paper 1 & English. It went pretty well, & I'm thankful for my own god for it. So.. recently, countless ridiculous things had happened, but what's shocking is; I don't seem affected by it that much anymore.
Like deal with it, that's what I tell myself now. Sometimes I don't even know who am I myself anymore. I felt like I've no one to confide in or talk to anymore. I finally realised what people meant when they said that they would feel alone even if there were many people around them. Gosh, I do not understand even for myself why I'm feeling this way. I'm terribly sorry for those whom I've pushed away, I know you care but I think I need to be alone. Shoutout to my girl who stayed by my side unexpectedly, WangJiawei. She seems so darn true to herself & I like that fact about her. I admire how she can be true to me & respect the fact that hey, she accepts me for who am I. Yeah, people might think that I'm crazy or hilarious that I'm saying this as I always seems to be the girl that's always fine & blahblahblah. Yes, I've lots of friends but at the end of the day, who stays? that's what matters.
I blame myself till this day that I was never a good friend to you, never someone that you could have relied on, because if I was; neither of this would have happened.
Enough with the ranting. Because yes, people come & people go. I just have to accept that fact & move on with life. We will all go our separate ways, our separate paths & pretend that all the sweet-nothings ever existed. What hurts the most was, this made me really realise how cruel life is, how hard it is to build up a friendship or a relationship that you thought it would last, yet it came crashing down like no freaking joke. I'm now even afraid even with the thought of people saying they'll always be here for me because those people who actually said those are actually the ones who leave your life first. I would like to show my gratitude to those who never said those but still, stayed by my unexpectedly, understanding me. I doubt many still reads my blog... but yeap! I will still & always be fine. :)
Now I'm just looking forward to what will happen at the end of the year, after my Os. I just wish that everything will turn out fine & everyone will be happy as always. To those who had really established strong relationships or friendships especially, don't screw it up. Because I promise you, you'll only regret when it's gone. Hold onto them tight & don't let go of each other. That's what I want to say. Thank you to those readers who still does reads my boring blog.
Till next time,
Signing off,
Nights Ellen. :)
Like deal with it, that's what I tell myself now. Sometimes I don't even know who am I myself anymore. I felt like I've no one to confide in or talk to anymore. I finally realised what people meant when they said that they would feel alone even if there were many people around them. Gosh, I do not understand even for myself why I'm feeling this way. I'm terribly sorry for those whom I've pushed away, I know you care but I think I need to be alone. Shoutout to my girl who stayed by my side unexpectedly, WangJiawei. She seems so darn true to herself & I like that fact about her. I admire how she can be true to me & respect the fact that hey, she accepts me for who am I. Yeah, people might think that I'm crazy or hilarious that I'm saying this as I always seems to be the girl that's always fine & blahblahblah. Yes, I've lots of friends but at the end of the day, who stays? that's what matters.
I blame myself till this day that I was never a good friend to you, never someone that you could have relied on, because if I was; neither of this would have happened.
Enough with the ranting. Because yes, people come & people go. I just have to accept that fact & move on with life. We will all go our separate ways, our separate paths & pretend that all the sweet-nothings ever existed. What hurts the most was, this made me really realise how cruel life is, how hard it is to build up a friendship or a relationship that you thought it would last, yet it came crashing down like no freaking joke. I'm now even afraid even with the thought of people saying they'll always be here for me because those people who actually said those are actually the ones who leave your life first. I would like to show my gratitude to those who never said those but still, stayed by my unexpectedly, understanding me. I doubt many still reads my blog... but yeap! I will still & always be fine. :)
Now I'm just looking forward to what will happen at the end of the year, after my Os. I just wish that everything will turn out fine & everyone will be happy as always. To those who had really established strong relationships or friendships especially, don't screw it up. Because I promise you, you'll only regret when it's gone. Hold onto them tight & don't let go of each other. That's what I want to say. Thank you to those readers who still does reads my boring blog.
P.S- Thanks for always being the first to notice when I'm not fine.
but you'll never know how much you mean to me becos'
I never liked to show it to you.
Till next time,
Signing off,
Nights Ellen. :)
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